well, the good news is that the doula training two weeks ago was fantastic!  the course was very inspiring.  i am still a little nervous about taking on a client.  i am mentally preparing myself to seek out opportunities.  i figure, to keep working at the library, i can really only take on one client anyway.  
not that i am a great public speaker or anything, but this morning a co-worker and i gave a presentation to a group of teachers on how to use the library's resources.  the topic was simple, but i was reminded how much i enjoy training-type situations.  my first job out of college was as a bookseller and assistant trainer at 
borders.  i really loved training new employees.  maybe i could go around giving little presentations on topics i know things about.  that would probably be fun.  speaking in public makes me 
really nervous when i don't really know what i'm talking about, or if the groups are too big, but talking about things i know well to small/medium sized groups of friendly people sounds fantastic.
and the bad news is that i had a weird and rapidly-progressing problem with my gum tissue.  i had to go to a periodontist who then performed a gum tissue implant.  they used freezed-dried connective tissue harvested from a cadaver!  so, my mouth looks disgusting and my smile is goofy.  it doesn't quite hurt, but it is a little sore.  i also suffered a bad fall this weekend.  it had been a long time since i had a good scrape-'em-up fall.  I skinned my elbow very deeply and my knee to a lesser extent.  
worse, i dropped my lovely 
sony clie.  the screen shattered right over the writing interface, so it doesn't work at all.  we only purchased the one-year protection plan, and it's been a year and a half.  drats.  i really loved my clie.  and sony stopped making them.  (companies always seem to stop making the things i love the most.  i guess my values are in opposition to the values of the majority of consumers.)  perhaps it is all an experiment in letting go.